Okay so your mom. Basically. Ummm... what I was really going to say was that the thing w/ the parenting exam turned out okay. I was freaking out about talking to him b/c I hate confrontation so much but when I got there he said before I talked to him he wanted to get me up to date (since he had a chance to look at the exams and had other students talk to him).... basically the person who wrote the exam for him made a bunch of typos and stuff so he realized that the answers we had really were right. So my grade got raised from a 68 to a 75 which still is not a good test score but I knew a lot of it I really just didn't know... but 75 is a heck of a lot better than 68, and he's still giving us the 40% raise opportunities so even if I do horrible on the one about the video (which I shouldn't), I'll still get a 95% on the test b/c the quizzes (Which give us teh other 20% increase) are the kind that you can take over and over until you get 100% so basically... yeah I got a 95% on my exam. I think when I get it back for real I'll post it on the fridge.. it'll be funny.. or dumb. Or dump, because that's what I started to type instead of dumb. I just did it again. CRAP. Today on RaveNet (which for non-Ravens is a forum thingy for AU where we can post stuff to each other..) Brad called me a post slut. Hmmmmm........................ LEAVE COMMENTS

Stresss!!!!! Yes, 3 s's at the end. Yesterday was sooo wonderful and great. Today, not so much. I woke up at 8 and studied for my quiz later today. I went to class at 10, then my Parenting class was at 11.... and... oh... my... gosh... UGH! Okay so we all did horrible on the exams b/c the professor marked all these questions wrong that are really right, according to the text, but he was too defensive to agree with us (well... that's the short version). Anyway most of us have appointments with him and our advisors to talk about it. I left the class shaking b/c of all the adrenaline running through my body, and I definately wasn't the only one. So that was horrible, it was all I talked about at lunch. Then I went to my 1:00 class, that was okay, I did good on the quiz (9/10). Then I went to my internship and that was the first time there was major conflict while I was there. The girls were trying to delegate chores and that's not so much a good thing ha. Umm.. then I rushed back to AU and had to watch this dumb video thingy for class, and then my RA cooked my roommates and I dinner. That was good. It was very yum. Spaghetti (yes, again haha) with homemade sauce... mmmmmmmmmmmmm. Then I spent a long time trying to find the right answers (that I really got right) in the textbook, and I have an exam tomorrow to study for. Fun times. not.

Yesterday was such a wonderful day.... I had calss at 8:30 and it was good (The Family) and then I skipped chapel so I could shower (b/c I woke up 20 min before my 8:30) and then at 12:30 I had Race & Ethnicity and that was fun b/c the prof told us about how she beat the tar out of a girl (you'd have to know the prof to understand why that is so great)... anywhoo... I then wandered over to Mocha Joe's and got an Eskimocha and read some homework, saw Amy Kelm (yay!) and then I had my first real AUCME meeting of the year. I just heart AUCME so much... it was great just basically worshiping with some of my great friends (I keep using the word great hehe)... then I met Sara Spitters (yay!!!) and we came back to my apartment and cooked spaghetti and corn bread haha oh the good times and memories... then we went shopping and I bought some stuff for the apartment (flowers, some food, I don't remember what else) and I bought some WAY CHEAP scrapbooking paper at Target and some yarn and knitting needles b/c she's gonna teach me how to knit. I'm excited. I love that girl so much! It was fun to catch up with her because the last time I really talked to her was when she was asking me what kinds of things she would need to bring to college. Umm... the end. JUST KIDDING (a-hahahahahaha!) The BEST part about yesterday: FALL!!! IT'S FINALLY FALL-ISH OUT!!!! HOORAY!!! You have no idea how happy that makes me. Perfect temperature, breezy, LEAVES EVERYWHERE! I love it!

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Songs About Jane
By Maroon 5

Yesterday during my quiet time, the Bible Study I am doing was talking about Love. At the end of the section, it suggested to pray "that this loving Jesus will become more real to you." or something along those lines. And so I prayed that. Later that night I went to my L'Aami meeting..... there are not many things more real and more exemplary than communion and foot washing.... Thank you girls for a beautiful night. Thank You God for such a loving group of girls. Thank You for answered prayers, and for Your many sacrifices

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Human Clay
By Creed
- Arms Wide Open

Random Thoughts Of The Day Brought To You By: Dihydrogen Monoxide (H20, Water...)

I have had 76 ounces of water so far today. The recommended amount is 48-64 ounces. The 76 I have had have not been enough. Is this a bad thing? So.. my parenting professor is wack. I quote Andrew Davidson: "Is he gonna ask me if I'm married every time I'm late?" (Due to the fact that Andrew has been late twice, and both times when he walked in the prof asked if he was married.) That's all.

Deep Thought Of The Day Brought To You By: Nelson Mandela, Apartheid Revolutionist

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate; our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everone. As we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our prescence automatically liberates others."

Amazing how a song written almost 250 years ago touches my heart and speaks the words within me so well...

Come thou fount of every blessing/tune my heart to sing thy grace/streams of mercy never ceasing/call for songs of loudest praise/teach me some melodious sonnet/sung by flamming tongues above/praise the mount! I'm fixed upon it/mount of thy redeeming blood/here I raise my Ebenezer/here by thy great help I've come/and I hope by thy good pleasure/safely to arrive at home/Jesus sought me when a stranger/wandering from the fold of God/He to rescue me from danger/interposed His precious blood/O to grace how great a debtor/daily I'm constrained to be/Let they goodness like a fetter/bind my wandering heart to thee/Prone to wander, Lord I feel it/prone to leave the God I love/Here's my heart oh take and seal it/seal it for thy courts above

Well... the weekend is finally here, that is as soon as I make it through one class and two exams, one of which the prof doesn't know what he's talking about, so... that should be good. Toga party tonight, woot! I'm a good little L'ami girl... um... hmmm. Yeah. So yesterday I had several people tell me that I looked sad. Do I look sad? I'm not sad... hmm...

Well our apartment is slowly getting cleaner. Sara might come over for dinner tonight... I love that girl. Umm.... I don't really know what to say right now, I just felt like updating this. I have an exam in less than two hours. I hate taking exams with new professors because you don't know what to expect.

Sometimes I just get really disappointed in people. Why do they have to do the things they do that just end up making them miserable? Why can't they see that they're wasting their lives? I wonder about myself sometimes. I kind of want to go into counseling, but how can I do that when I get so upset when I hear about what people do.... maybe counseling isn't for me. That'd be okay. Whatever He wants is fine with me . I feel frustrated right now. Frustrated in myself for not cleaning my apartment or doing my homework and just being lazy lately. Frustrated in the decisions other people are making and frustrated that I'm frustrated by it. I mean, it shouldn't matter that much to me, it's not my life they're living.

Things on my mind:

I want a baby

I need to brush my teeth

I love my roommates

I need to cut my toenails

I want a dishwasher

The apartment is a mess

I wish I was more articulate

I know this a pretty controversial topic but today in my Parenting class we were talking about spanking. Now, me personally, I think it's okay to spank your kids OCCASIONALLY, and with GOOD REASON, and ABSOLUTELY NOT while you are still very angry... calm down for a while first. I was spanked and I don't hate my parents for it and I am not an agressive person. However, I don't think that I will ever spank my kids. But anyway... we watched a video about these parents who spanked their kids, a lot. They had maybe 5 kids and they would spank them constantly. She slapped her 3 year old daughter like 5 times in a row on the wrist for playing with her food. She did the same thing to her maybe 18-month old for picking her nose. She smacked the butt of her 2 year old for, get this, soiling her TRAINING PANTS. THAT'S WHAT THEY'RE FOR!!!! One of her daughters was maybe 4 or 5 and she pulled her sister's hair and so her mom yanked on her ponytail. And these weren't just a tug of the hair and light slaps, these looked they would hurt me if I were the one being spanked that way, and I'm 21 years old. They justified it by saying that nothing else they've tried (which it didn't seem like they had tried anything else anyway) worked, but obviously the spanking wasn't working anyway. IT PISSES ME OFF that there are parents out there like that. I wanted to jump into the overhead screen, take those kids and bring them home with me.

Tonight while rushing we were all in a conga line type thing, blindfolded and walked through a field. It was weird, b/c when you're blindfolded you feel like you're about to walk right into something, but then I realized that's not logical because obviously the person in front of me would run into it first. It made me think about how we walk through life constantly (or at least sometimes) thinking that we're going to mess up and make a big mistake, but God is there in front of us all the time.

Is there anything more precious than more than 2,000 voices singing out in beautiful unison, "It is well with my soul!"

I pray that God will show me what areas of my life I have yet to sacrifice to Him. A painful plea, though I know it will result in great joy.

So the other day my roommate (DeeDee) borrowed my computer b/c her's can't get onto the school's network yet, and she looked up some racist hate group websites for a class, and then some porno pop-ups kept getting on my computer. Then later I used my computer for the same reason (I'm in the same class) and I got porn pop-ups also. Then later that night I shut my computer down. The next morning I turned it on... and it wouldn't start up... so... my computer doesn't work. So now I am using my other roommate's computer. Other than that fiasco... things are going pretty well so far this year. We still have a messy, unorganized apartment, but we're working on it. I just realized how busy I'm going to be this semester. First, there's classes until 2pm every day (3pm on Friday). Then Monday nights I'll have Lami meetings (a social group, AU's version of sorority [or however you spell it] but you don't live together, I'm going to Rush it this year), then Tuesday nights I'll have a study group for one of my classes, Wednesday afternoons I have my internship, and then I also want to do a campus ministry where upperclassmen mentor underclassmen, and then I'm going to do AUCME again, and we'll have practice at least once a week, and we'll go away on weekends. And on top of all that I would like to get some sort of job, preferably on campus... Speaking of busy, I'm off to one of three meetings tonight... later!

My main prayer for this semester is that I can get to know my friends on a deeper, more spiritual level (AU friends and SJ friends) and that I will be more open to people and be more willing to share of myself even if they don't share back. I pray that God will really use me, speak through me. I pray that I can fall so in love with Him that it will radiate through my entire being into my whole surrounding.

I'm officially going to be interning at Triple L Youth Ranch for one of my classes. No it's not paid and it's 2 hours a week, 10 weeks. It's a place where at risk teens go and stay there for 6-9 months. I'm not ENTIRELY sure yet what I'll be doing but I'm excited to see how God will use me in the lives of those kids. I'll keep you posted.

GUESS WHAT!!! I'm going home Saturday. Now, normally I do not like to go home a whole lot during the school year, and ESPECIALLY not during the first weekend. BUT... Stacy and I are going to work at the catering place Krista works at, and we're gonna get $105 CASH for it, so I think it's worth going home for, don't you? Hehehe Umm... that's all I have for now, other than that this school year is going great so far. It's so nice to have roommates that I knew before we started living together.