Monday, November 30, 2009


what is #bedd? it's 'blog every day december'. it all started when jennifer decided to 'blog every day april'. at the time, i thought it was a good idea, but i didn't join her. i did, however, join her for 'blog every day september'. i missed a few (six) days, but that's okay.

here's to 'blog every day december', or, #bedd.

i've gathered up a handful of other bloggers to join me - as you can see by the list to your right, appropriately labeled "#bedd bloggers".

so. will you join me for #bedd? (er. that didn't sound right. but you know what i mean.)

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

i. love. airports.

i'm sitting here at good ole bna with about four hours to spare. not because i'm overeager or thought i would need four hours to spare, it's just the way things worked out today.

and i'm okay with that.

because i love airports.

i think i love the stories that are in airports. not that i know anyone's story here, (heck, i don't even know my own) but just the thought of so many people from so many places all colliding... i love it.

[on a side note: i don't consider myself a frequent flier, but i do fly several times a year. after three years of this, you'd think i'd have an airport celebrity encounter by now. but, nope.]

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

i kind of feel like a hypocrite, but...

i highly recommend that you buy seth philpott's new ep off itunes. now.

so, one may wonder, what about that makes me a hypocrite? well, i haven't bought it yet. 'cause he's got a show here in nashville soonish and i'm hoping he'll have a physical ep i can pick up there. and if not, then i'll buy the ep. but i already own a different three track ep, "the busted souls ep" he gave out at another show a few months back. so i know how amazing he is, and i know that you'll love him.

[edited 12/22/09: so seth had a twitter contest giving away his e.p. and i won. so i got a digital copy of it. and and then he had a show in nashville and i bought a physical copy. go old school.]

Monday, November 23, 2009

my story, or, what i want.

several months ago i finally got around to joining a community group in my church. a few gatherings in, one person suggested that we each take turns, one person per meeting, telling our stories.

and then i panicked.

not because i didn't want to tell my story, but because i realized i didn't know what it was.

what is my story? what is any story?

last week i read "a million miles in a thousand years" by my favorite author, donald miller, and later that week i got to hear him speak on the book. the book talks about how to tell a better story with our lives. in it, don defines (well, actually, his roommate defines for him) what a story is: "a story is a character who overcomes conflict to get what he wants." don goes on to explain that the story is only good if what the character wants is interesting. for example, he says, no one wants to watch a 2-hour movie about a guy trying to buy a volvo. we don't care.

so. back to my story. if my story is a character (me) overcoming conflict (let's not get into that now) to get what i want.... wait. what do i want? i don't know. i don't know what i want, and perhaps that's why i don't know what my story is.

Monday, November 16, 2009

i'm sick.

church was intense on sunday. dave mentioned the things that we make idols in our lives... what we let control us. he said the best way to tell what is an idol is to look at what fills our imagination, our time, and our money.

so i thought. and i looked. and i was disgusted with myself.

the things that i let consume my life aren't necessarily bad things by themselves, but to realize how i put those things up on a pedestal, while trampling all over my creator... it's gross.

i'm sick.

it's a good thing he did not come for the healthy.

Monday, November 9, 2009


a couple of bloggers i follow (meet annie and marisa) blogged about home today. turns out, one of their bloggy friends is asking bloggers to do so, i signed myself up.

so. home.

over the past twenty-something years of my life, i have moved 17 times (13 different houses/dorms/apartments). that being said, i lived in the same house for over 16 years, and i have only lived in three towns. let's just say i moved a lot during my college years. and i've had 30 roommates.

i consider all three towns to be my home. i do not, however, consider all 13 dwelling spaces to have been my home. some of them were very short-term (a few were two weeks, but rent was paid, so yes, i lived there).

anyway. i'm getting off topic.


i'm going home for thanksgiving in a few weeks. this is the house where i spent the majority of my life. i have a lot of childhood memories (and adulthood memories too). while i lived in two of the three bedrooms (i stole my big brother's room when he moved out), i no longer have a room to call my own. at the moment, there's a guest bedroom, which is considered my brother's room (though he no longer lives there, he visits more than i do and he has a lot of personal effects in the room). the room i lived in last has a computer desk, and that's about it. regardless, it's still my home. home doesn't mean having a place to call my own.

i lived in eight different places in my college town. yes, eight places in four years... six of those places were in the last two years. anyway. i more or less think of the campus/town as a whole my home, rather than any specific place. with maybe the exception of two places: the intern house, and the mercy house.

the intern house. i lived there for two months. with six other girls. and we all got along the entire two months. that's not to say things were perfect... things were definitely not perfect. with the five other interns (all dudes), our pastor, and a dozen or so other member's of our community coming and going as they please. it was beautiful. those two months of my life were the best definition of community i have ever experienced for myself. i need to move on, as that could be a blog of its own. maybe it will be some day.

the mercy house. it wasn't even a house. it was my church. it wasn't even a "church" as one would call a building. the building itself was an elementary school, until the church moved in. then it became our meeting place, as well a dorm of sorts for some of the guys in the church. we were a new church... our internship started only months into the life of the church. while i never lived there, i still consider it my home. even now, when i visit that place, i only recognize a handful of faces, but it still feels like home.

nashville. my current home. there have definitely been times over the past few years where this place seemed like the furthest thing from home. but now, i can't imagine living anywhere else. this city has so much to offer, and i love every little thing about it.

this might sound contradictory to what i just said, but there is somewhere else i belong. i don't know where that place is, but part of me has always felt homesick for a place unknown. this world is too large to live in one place for forever. whether it's short- or long-term, i know i have somewhere else to discover someday.

actually, this world is not my home. i wasn't made to live here. i'm meant for something more. we all are.