well...

there goes number three.

farewell, my friend. farewell.

another one bites the dust...

i just got done saying goodbye to a friend who is moving away.

by the end of this week, i'll have said goodbye to another one, which will make three in the past month.

they say things happen in three's...

oy.

this week has been.... odd. hahaha. crazy schedules, working early, leaving work early, working late, working from home, out of town guests, unexpected emails...

just.. odd. but good.

it shouldn't be this hard, should it?

i am reminded again today that none of this is in my hands. as much as i like to think otherwise, i do not control my life, no do i have the power to change my life (only the gospel has the power to change my life). everything is in god's hands. in my human sinful nature i can't help but be angered by this and frustrated to know that ultimately it's not up to me. i can strive to make things happen the way i want them to, but until i allow my will to reflect that of the one who knows best, that cannot happen.

and though easier said than done, i need to remember that it's better this way. god understands my needs and desires much more than i do.

sometimes i can't help but think that he gets a little chuckle out of my futile endeavors.

the path to self-discovery.

i found myself today.
i was in nashville.