I am currently at an old geisha house in Nara, Japan. How cool is that? I'm spending the night here!

Took my last final today and wrote my last paper.

Next step: a job.

Dilemma: I currently have a job here in Anderson. I'm about to go to Japan for 2 weeks. When I get back I'm pretty sure I still have that job. I will have no money after Japan. I have friends to stay with here. I have friends to stay with in the city I plan to move to. I have no job there. Do I come back from Japan and put in a two week notice and stay and work two weeks then move and find a job? Do I just say I can't come back after tomorrow and move right after Japan and find a job? Places are hiring and I've talked to some and they just say "well when you are ready to move then let us know" so I'm thinking it will be easier to find the job when I already live there.

Oh what to do what to do.

From "The Call to Conversion" by Jim Wallis

"I remember a conference in New York City. The topic was social justice. Assembled for the meeting were theologians, pastors, priests, nuns, and lay church leaders. At one point a Native American stood up, looked out over the mostly white audience, and said, 'Regardless of what the New Testament says, most Christians are materialists with no experience of the Spirit. Regardless of what the New Testament says, most Christians are individuals with no real experience of community.' He paused for a mement and then continued: 'Let's pretned that you were all Christians. If you were Christians, you would no longer accumulate. You would share everything you had. You would actually love one another. And you would treat each other as if you were family.' His eyes were piercing as he asked, 'Why don't you do that? Why don't you live that way?'"

We all have little lies that we believe. Okay, so maybe they aren't that little. But they are quiet whispers of darkness and we believe them. Somedays we see them and we say "HEY! YOU'RE MY FUCKING LIE! I DON'T BELIEVE YOU ANYMORE!!"



But the next day we believe it again.



Why is it so hard to believe the truth and to accept the freedom that it brings?

My Last College Weekend

I must say it was pretty amazing. Let me try to sum it all up for you:

Friday Night was game night here at FC205 with Stacy, Mallory, Stephanie, Amy, Katie, Angie, Jen, Mel, Krista, Puff, and Chad

Then Stacy and I watched Fried Green Tomatoes, which resulted in me falling asleep on the couch.

Saturday Morning I went to the church and made journals with all the bound4freedom girls. That lasted until evening, and as I said the other day it was relaxing, fun, laughter, and relaxation.

Saturday Evening I went to Real with Stacy and Jen and some of Jen's friends. That was fun. That's all I say here.

I then went to visit Sara at Mocha Joe's, and since she was closing I got half of an oreo cheesecake for free, which is now in my fridge, minus two pieces (one for me, one for Stacy).

Sunday morning was Senior Sunday at church. This just means that after church Conner prayed for us seniors. And I cried. And then I laughed. And then I got free lunch at the Marketplace, which was horrible just like it always is, but hey, it was my last brunch at the MP. Sunday afternoon I did the typical and relaxed, watching tv and movies and I sewed a journal.

Sunday night went to the church and played Risk with I don't even know who all was there. It was a lot of people, we had two games going. I had never played before. I was the first to die in my game. I blame Krista, who was my teammate, for not teaching me to strategize. She blames me, "A chain is only as strong as it's weakest link." But really it was probably because we tried to Strategize in German, and Audrey knows German. As Audrey and Conner say, "Friends before, friends after, but not friends during." It's an intense game.