tomorrow night, i have a date. and i'm pretty excited about it.
it's a date with my former self: old letters from friends, my old journals, and probably my current journal as well. and of course, a glass of wine (or maybe two).
i figure the best way to start discovering who i am is to remind myself of who i've been.
i promise to let you all know how it goes.
p.s. in my last post, i mentioned trying to finish a book before february. i accomplished said goal. phew.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Thursday, January 28, 2010
an apology with a hint of what's to come
wow. i guess i've kind of neglected ye ole bloggyblog, especially in comparison to when i blogged every day in december. but, i've had three good reasons for doing so:
1. i've been too busy going to see live music. i know, i know. i see live music a lot. but i've already gotten a pretty good start on 2010 - i've been to seven shows already this year. maybe that's a lame excuse for not blogging. but excuse number 2 you can't deny is excellent.
2. i've been too busy watching lost. on the nights that i haven't been at a show (and, well, probably some nights that i also went to a show), i've been re-watching the previous seasons of lost. i got caught up in the lost-frenzy right before season 3 aired, and so the past couple years i've made it a point to re-watch all the episodes leading up to the new season. i have several reasons for doing this: a) i'm a dork. b) there are things you notice in previous seasons that make more sense now that you know what you know, you know? c) i'm a dork. not a lost fan? don't appreciate my addiction? then how does excuse number 3 sound?
3. i've been reading more. something i intended to do last year, but just never really did. in fact, i started reading st. augustine's 'confessions' back in july. yeah, july. (though, technically, i really started reading back in 2005 when it was assigned for a class. but i never finished it then either. though, i did pass the class.) and there's another book i want to start reading very soon, but i know if i start it before finishing confessions, i will never finish confessions. so i have determined that i WILL finish it before february.
those are my excuses. but whatever. i only have four more days until the final season of lost starts, and 16 episodes to watch in that amount of time (so it's a good thing i don't have any more live music events planned until february). and i have three days left of the month, with about 25 pages of that book to go. and yeah, 25 pages in three days can easily be done for a normal book (okay let's face it, 25 pages can be done in about 30 minutes for a normal book), and it's not that this book is *that* hard of a read, it just doesn't grab my attention, so i zone out while reading it, then have to go back and re-read what i just read in order to know what it is that i just read. but didn't come this far to not finish it, so, there you go.
i do plan to blog more in february (though not every day). and part of my plans for blogging more in february involve blogging about that book i want to start in february. but you have to wait until then to find out what it is. but let me tell you. i'm excited.... excited about what it means for this blog, for my real-paper-journal, for my soul, and for who i am, whoever that is.
oh. and p.s. another project i've been occupied with this month? i received an external hard drive for christmas. and so i've been trying to take all my old pictures off the internets in order to save them on the drive and reorganize them. 'cause i have a million facebook albums, and two flickr accounts. yes, two. let me tell you. it's not easy organizing photos from so long ago, but boy it sure brings back a lot of memories. i think this will also help with my february blog project. stay tuned.
1. i've been too busy going to see live music. i know, i know. i see live music a lot. but i've already gotten a pretty good start on 2010 - i've been to seven shows already this year. maybe that's a lame excuse for not blogging. but excuse number 2 you can't deny is excellent.
2. i've been too busy watching lost. on the nights that i haven't been at a show (and, well, probably some nights that i also went to a show), i've been re-watching the previous seasons of lost. i got caught up in the lost-frenzy right before season 3 aired, and so the past couple years i've made it a point to re-watch all the episodes leading up to the new season. i have several reasons for doing this: a) i'm a dork. b) there are things you notice in previous seasons that make more sense now that you know what you know, you know? c) i'm a dork. not a lost fan? don't appreciate my addiction? then how does excuse number 3 sound?
3. i've been reading more. something i intended to do last year, but just never really did. in fact, i started reading st. augustine's 'confessions' back in july. yeah, july. (though, technically, i really started reading back in 2005 when it was assigned for a class. but i never finished it then either. though, i did pass the class.) and there's another book i want to start reading very soon, but i know if i start it before finishing confessions, i will never finish confessions. so i have determined that i WILL finish it before february.
those are my excuses. but whatever. i only have four more days until the final season of lost starts, and 16 episodes to watch in that amount of time (so it's a good thing i don't have any more live music events planned until february). and i have three days left of the month, with about 25 pages of that book to go. and yeah, 25 pages in three days can easily be done for a normal book (okay let's face it, 25 pages can be done in about 30 minutes for a normal book), and it's not that this book is *that* hard of a read, it just doesn't grab my attention, so i zone out while reading it, then have to go back and re-read what i just read in order to know what it is that i just read. but didn't come this far to not finish it, so, there you go.
i do plan to blog more in february (though not every day). and part of my plans for blogging more in february involve blogging about that book i want to start in february. but you have to wait until then to find out what it is. but let me tell you. i'm excited.... excited about what it means for this blog, for my real-paper-journal, for my soul, and for who i am, whoever that is.
oh. and p.s. another project i've been occupied with this month? i received an external hard drive for christmas. and so i've been trying to take all my old pictures off the internets in order to save them on the drive and reorganize them. 'cause i have a million facebook albums, and two flickr accounts. yes, two. let me tell you. it's not easy organizing photos from so long ago, but boy it sure brings back a lot of memories. i think this will also help with my february blog project. stay tuned.
Monday, January 11, 2010
undefined
i cannot be defined.
i'm an artist, but i like rules and order. but i like to break the rules and order.
i need routine, but i need to mix it up.
i'm shy and quite, but i'm an extrovert. i need to be around people, but retreat to solitude.
i love the city. i love the country.
i crave independence and i thrive in community.
i'm all over the place.
i'm right here.
i don't fit the mold. i don't break the mold.
i'm an artist, but i like rules and order. but i like to break the rules and order.
i need routine, but i need to mix it up.
i'm shy and quite, but i'm an extrovert. i need to be around people, but retreat to solitude.
i love the city. i love the country.
i crave independence and i thrive in community.
i'm all over the place.
i'm right here.
i don't fit the mold. i don't break the mold.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
now you know.
jen challenged me to share a few things with you that you might not know about me. there are probably a lot of things, but it's surprising how hard it seems to come up with anything. when i read her post on the topic, i thought of an old post of mine where i listed 100 things that make me happy. it's not exactly the same, but it's similar. so maybe i'm cheating by digging up an old post, but it's interesting to see that my favorite things from over a year ago are still some of my favorite things.
though i have to say, i can't remember the last time i left a fun note on any co-worker's desk. i might have to revisit that little habit.
though i have to say, i can't remember the last time i left a fun note on any co-worker's desk. i might have to revisit that little habit.
Monday, January 4, 2010
days like these.
today was a good day. another day that reminds me of just how much i love living in nashville.
that's all.
that's all.
Thursday, December 31, 2009
the oh's.
well. a new decade is upon us (in approximately seven hours, central time).
so. i should sum up the oh's. if i can.
2000
i was sixteen. got my driver's license, bought a blue '91 pontiac 6000 from my brother. i remember thinking i was such an adult for going on a shopping trip with sara and abby 45 minutes away from our hometown. i still worked at dairy queen.
2001
graduated high school. went to community college. i started working in a church office as an assistant to the secretary. i loved that job. 9/11.
2002
finished up my first year at communtiy college. traded the pontiac in for a '93 toyota camry. left home for anderson. made many dear friends.
2003
finished up my first year at anderson. all of my closest friends from that year didn't come back that fall, so i had to start over. but that brought me to even more friends, most of which are still some of my closest friends. my roommate was from japan, which was a fun experience.
2004
year three at anderson. it was a good year, living with two of my good friends. classes were tough, but it was exciting. i started going to a brand new church - the mercy house. changed.my.life.forever. ended the year in jamaica.
2005
started the year in jamaica. also went to london. interned at the mercy house. that internship was my first glimpse at real community. i realized i no longer was interested in my major, but decided it was too late to change it. i learned how to make the journals i now sell. i met stacy, who is still one of my closest friends. thought for sure i'd be moving to boston in 2006 (however, i still have never even visited that city). ended the year in italy.
2006
started the year in italy. went to japan, and was able to visit my former roommate. finished up school at anderson. moved to nashville. big changes.
2007
started the job i'm at now. slowly fell in love with nashville.
2008
a tough year with lots of changes. but an amazing year with more new friends. i also traveled a bit around the country. for the sake of live music.
2009
the best year yet. by far. i just summed this up yesterday, so for details, clicky.
so. i should sum up the oh's. if i can.
2000
i was sixteen. got my driver's license, bought a blue '91 pontiac 6000 from my brother. i remember thinking i was such an adult for going on a shopping trip with sara and abby 45 minutes away from our hometown. i still worked at dairy queen.
2001
graduated high school. went to community college. i started working in a church office as an assistant to the secretary. i loved that job. 9/11.
2002
finished up my first year at communtiy college. traded the pontiac in for a '93 toyota camry. left home for anderson. made many dear friends.
2003
finished up my first year at anderson. all of my closest friends from that year didn't come back that fall, so i had to start over. but that brought me to even more friends, most of which are still some of my closest friends. my roommate was from japan, which was a fun experience.
2004
year three at anderson. it was a good year, living with two of my good friends. classes were tough, but it was exciting. i started going to a brand new church - the mercy house. changed.my.life.forever. ended the year in jamaica.
2005
started the year in jamaica. also went to london. interned at the mercy house. that internship was my first glimpse at real community. i realized i no longer was interested in my major, but decided it was too late to change it. i learned how to make the journals i now sell. i met stacy, who is still one of my closest friends. thought for sure i'd be moving to boston in 2006 (however, i still have never even visited that city). ended the year in italy.
2006
started the year in italy. went to japan, and was able to visit my former roommate. finished up school at anderson. moved to nashville. big changes.
2007
started the job i'm at now. slowly fell in love with nashville.
2008
a tough year with lots of changes. but an amazing year with more new friends. i also traveled a bit around the country. for the sake of live music.
2009
the best year yet. by far. i just summed this up yesterday, so for details, clicky.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
my life in oh-nine.
i guess it's time for ye ole obligatory year recap. here we go.
january
there isn't much i remember about january, other than knowing that at that point, i made two major decisions: (1) i was not going to move away from nashville. (2) i was going to move out of my apartment. i also took on a hefty student loan payment for '09, and i feared it would result in me not having a life. not that i had much of one at the time. this was primary motivation for moving out of my apartment. i needed roommates to save money. i also needed roommates to save my soul. i was lonely.
february
i found a house to move into. february also began my obsession with local coffee shops. i mean, i had loved them for years, but at this point i became a frequent fido customer. i turned 26. i started to find community through a few friends at church. i resurrected this here blog. old faithful needed a new transmission. i saw ben folds live for the first time. i was introduced to the wonder that is andy davis. i became a tweetaholic.
march
the biggest event of march was moving into my current home. which.i.love. i went from a one-bedroom apartment in the almost-ghetto to an old 4-bedroom house with tons of character, nestled between my two favorite nashville neighborhoods. many of my favorite coffee shops, restaurants, and boutiques where i can't afford anything are within a one-mile radius.
april
let's see. i met some girls from australia who were in town for a few weeks. my favorite band came to nashville for a music festival. i went to wisconsin for the first time. joined a small group at my church, which was long overdue since i've been going there since i moved to nashville in '06. and i finally gained something i had been missing for awhile: a life. i was hardly ever home in april.
may
biggest and best may event: tulsa road trip. some friends and i loaded up the car and headed west to see our favorite band. they had a special event in an intimate setting where they recorded, live, some new songs that were later put onto an ep. the show was amazing, the songs were incredible, the jokes and memories from the road trip? priceless. now i feel like a master card commercial. moving on.
june
i met a few new friends in june, which have turned out to be some of my closest friends here in nashville. i volunteered with ellie's run. finally joined mocha club. saw andy davis again. celebrated two years at my job, which is just weird to think about. i hosted a walk to raise money to build water wells in africa. i discovered a new coffee shop - one that is only two blocks from my house and now quite as hipster-run as fido. frothy monkey. it's just so cute and adorable and everyone there is friendly. and let's face it. the location couldn't be any better.
july
july. july will be one of those months that i will never, ever forget. i finally decided to start making journals again. i got drenched on the 4th, and loved it. however, i feel as though the best details of july will have to remain a mystery to you blog readers. so you just have to trust me when i say it was a good month.
august
in august i celebrated my 3-year nashaversary. and my mom and i travled to orange county to visit our cousin. it was easily the most relaxing vacation i have ever had. usually my vacations are go-go-go. while i got to see quite a bit of orange county, la, and the surrounding areas, there was much time spent in the pool and hot tub, sipping mojitos. it was just what i needed.
september
september was another good month. i spent a lot of time making journals, which stirred up the creative and more introspective side of me, the part of me i had ignored for far too long. i had the opportunity to catch up with some old friends. i realized, for the 320948209438th time how incredible 2009 was turning out to be. i realized, for the 320948209438th time that i had finally found the community i had ached for in 2008. i embraced autumn and everything that it stands for.
october
october was my travel month. indianapolis. chicago. charlotte. myrtle beach. atlanta. why? because i love my favorite band, my friends, any excuse to travel, and i'm a little bit crazy.
november
i thought a lot in november. i thought about the whirlwind of 2009. about god's grace, and his promises. about hope. about myself, my story, god's story. about what the next chapter will be.
december
here we are. the past few years have had a trend, where each year is better than the one before. though every year i'm blown away by how that could even be possible. but there's something about 2010. i just have this feeling that something big will give birth in 2010. and that's what's been on my mind the most this month. i guess i just feel like a lot of the events from this year have lined up in a way to prepare me for what's to come. i guess we'll see.
january
there isn't much i remember about january, other than knowing that at that point, i made two major decisions: (1) i was not going to move away from nashville. (2) i was going to move out of my apartment. i also took on a hefty student loan payment for '09, and i feared it would result in me not having a life. not that i had much of one at the time. this was primary motivation for moving out of my apartment. i needed roommates to save money. i also needed roommates to save my soul. i was lonely.
february
i found a house to move into. february also began my obsession with local coffee shops. i mean, i had loved them for years, but at this point i became a frequent fido customer. i turned 26. i started to find community through a few friends at church. i resurrected this here blog. old faithful needed a new transmission. i saw ben folds live for the first time. i was introduced to the wonder that is andy davis. i became a tweetaholic.
march
the biggest event of march was moving into my current home. which.i.love. i went from a one-bedroom apartment in the almost-ghetto to an old 4-bedroom house with tons of character, nestled between my two favorite nashville neighborhoods. many of my favorite coffee shops, restaurants, and boutiques where i can't afford anything are within a one-mile radius.
april
let's see. i met some girls from australia who were in town for a few weeks. my favorite band came to nashville for a music festival. i went to wisconsin for the first time. joined a small group at my church, which was long overdue since i've been going there since i moved to nashville in '06. and i finally gained something i had been missing for awhile: a life. i was hardly ever home in april.
may
biggest and best may event: tulsa road trip. some friends and i loaded up the car and headed west to see our favorite band. they had a special event in an intimate setting where they recorded, live, some new songs that were later put onto an ep. the show was amazing, the songs were incredible, the jokes and memories from the road trip? priceless. now i feel like a master card commercial. moving on.
june
i met a few new friends in june, which have turned out to be some of my closest friends here in nashville. i volunteered with ellie's run. finally joined mocha club. saw andy davis again. celebrated two years at my job, which is just weird to think about. i hosted a walk to raise money to build water wells in africa. i discovered a new coffee shop - one that is only two blocks from my house and now quite as hipster-run as fido. frothy monkey. it's just so cute and adorable and everyone there is friendly. and let's face it. the location couldn't be any better.
july
july. july will be one of those months that i will never, ever forget. i finally decided to start making journals again. i got drenched on the 4th, and loved it. however, i feel as though the best details of july will have to remain a mystery to you blog readers. so you just have to trust me when i say it was a good month.
august
in august i celebrated my 3-year nashaversary. and my mom and i travled to orange county to visit our cousin. it was easily the most relaxing vacation i have ever had. usually my vacations are go-go-go. while i got to see quite a bit of orange county, la, and the surrounding areas, there was much time spent in the pool and hot tub, sipping mojitos. it was just what i needed.
september
september was another good month. i spent a lot of time making journals, which stirred up the creative and more introspective side of me, the part of me i had ignored for far too long. i had the opportunity to catch up with some old friends. i realized, for the 320948209438th time how incredible 2009 was turning out to be. i realized, for the 320948209438th time that i had finally found the community i had ached for in 2008. i embraced autumn and everything that it stands for.
october
october was my travel month. indianapolis. chicago. charlotte. myrtle beach. atlanta. why? because i love my favorite band, my friends, any excuse to travel, and i'm a little bit crazy.
november
i thought a lot in november. i thought about the whirlwind of 2009. about god's grace, and his promises. about hope. about myself, my story, god's story. about what the next chapter will be.
december
here we are. the past few years have had a trend, where each year is better than the one before. though every year i'm blown away by how that could even be possible. but there's something about 2010. i just have this feeling that something big will give birth in 2010. and that's what's been on my mind the most this month. i guess i just feel like a lot of the events from this year have lined up in a way to prepare me for what's to come. i guess we'll see.
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