the path to self-discovery.

i found myself today.
i was in nashville.

well

it's done, but it's not over.

music

thnk you, der music, for speking the words tht i cnnot find for myself.

(my pplogies for my keybord, which went ll crp-like gin)

change...

an unexpected change is happening. it's not even my change, it's someone else's change, but like the movie the butterfly effect it does inevitably effect me somehow. most recently, it's made me realize that i am not who i thought i was all this time. i can speak my feelings, i can be strong, i have no reason to hide.

this probably doesn't make sense unless you know what i'm talking about. you probably don't know what i'm talking about. it probably needs to stay that way.

happy official no-work day!

so, it's the day before a long-weekend, so i'm not working.

i'm at work, but i'm not working.

robin, my manager, is on vacation and she emailed us telling us that we could leave early today. she never gave a specific time that we could leave, so i'm just not working at all. i could leave now, since it IS almost 2:00, but i'm stuck here anyway because amber and i are going up to indiana together, and her department did not get permission to leave early.

so i'm writing on my xanga and i have nothing to say really.

so far today, i did do a little bit of work (approved and denied a few contracts), went to the mall for an hour (lunch break), walked around the office talking to other people, visited with people who came into the accounting office, wrote on a few facebook walls, made bryce do some non-work related photoshopping, watched some youtube videos, IM'd a few people....

yeah. i guess that's it. happy no work day!

because i know you were all in suspense...

i now have plans for the 4th.

that's all.

i'm having fun.

that's really all i have to say right now. i guess i go through these stages where sometimes i feel like i am not taking advantage of the fact that i'm young and single and that i'm not living my life to its fullest. right now is not one of those times. sure, i could probably be doing a lot more than i am (it would help if i had extra money haha), but i do feel like i'm having a lot of fun right now.

this is the first weekend i've had in awhile without anything "fun" to do. i did put in some overtime at work yesterday, not that it's fun to make new files, but i had fun spending the day with melissa. and i made cookies.

yeah. i'm fun.

i just wish i had the money to leave the country right now. and i have no plans for the fourth, which hopefully will change sometime in the next two weeks.