an unexpected change is happening. it's not even my change, it's someone else's change, but like the movie the butterfly effect it does inevitably effect me somehow. most recently, it's made me realize that i am not who i thought i was all this time. i can speak my feelings, i can be strong, i have no reason to hide.
this probably doesn't make sense unless you know what i'm talking about. you probably don't know what i'm talking about. it probably needs to stay that way.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Thursday, July 3, 2008
happy official no-work day!
so, it's the day before a long-weekend, so i'm not working.
i'm at work, but i'm not working.
robin, my manager, is on vacation and she emailed us telling us that we could leave early today. she never gave a specific time that we could leave, so i'm just not working at all. i could leave now, since it IS almost 2:00, but i'm stuck here anyway because amber and i are going up to indiana together, and her department did not get permission to leave early.
so i'm writing on my xanga and i have nothing to say really.
so far today, i did do a little bit of work (approved and denied a few contracts), went to the mall for an hour (lunch break), walked around the office talking to other people, visited with people who came into the accounting office, wrote on a few facebook walls, made bryce do some non-work related photoshopping, watched some youtube videos, IM'd a few people....
yeah. i guess that's it. happy no work day!
i'm at work, but i'm not working.
robin, my manager, is on vacation and she emailed us telling us that we could leave early today. she never gave a specific time that we could leave, so i'm just not working at all. i could leave now, since it IS almost 2:00, but i'm stuck here anyway because amber and i are going up to indiana together, and her department did not get permission to leave early.
so i'm writing on my xanga and i have nothing to say really.
so far today, i did do a little bit of work (approved and denied a few contracts), went to the mall for an hour (lunch break), walked around the office talking to other people, visited with people who came into the accounting office, wrote on a few facebook walls, made bryce do some non-work related photoshopping, watched some youtube videos, IM'd a few people....
yeah. i guess that's it. happy no work day!
Monday, June 30, 2008
Sunday, June 22, 2008
i'm having fun.
that's really all i have to say right now. i guess i go through these stages where sometimes i feel like i am not taking advantage of the fact that i'm young and single and that i'm not living my life to its fullest. right now is not one of those times. sure, i could probably be doing a lot more than i am (it would help if i had extra money haha), but i do feel like i'm having a lot of fun right now.
this is the first weekend i've had in awhile without anything "fun" to do. i did put in some overtime at work yesterday, not that it's fun to make new files, but i had fun spending the day with melissa. and i made cookies.
yeah. i'm fun.
i just wish i had the money to leave the country right now. and i have no plans for the fourth, which hopefully will change sometime in the next two weeks.
this is the first weekend i've had in awhile without anything "fun" to do. i did put in some overtime at work yesterday, not that it's fun to make new files, but i had fun spending the day with melissa. and i made cookies.
yeah. i'm fun.
i just wish i had the money to leave the country right now. and i have no plans for the fourth, which hopefully will change sometime in the next two weeks.
Monday, April 14, 2008
Home On The Road
Well I departed Nashville on Saturday morning. Saturday evening I went bowling in the ole college town. Sunday morning I went to the old college church. At the moment I'm in Mocha Joe's.... (coffee shop on campus).
It's funny how in these places I see only one or two faces I recognize, and yet it still feels like home. I think I wrote something similar when I got back from homecoming back in October. But it's nice to know that even if I only know a few people still in town, that it's still home to me. I haven't lived here in two years, and it's a town that changes constantly (well, the people do. everything else is the same).
I love it. Anderson is my home. Michigan is my home. Nashville is my home.
The road is my home. I feel just as welcome and just as at peace on the road.
This journey has just begun.
It's funny how in these places I see only one or two faces I recognize, and yet it still feels like home. I think I wrote something similar when I got back from homecoming back in October. But it's nice to know that even if I only know a few people still in town, that it's still home to me. I haven't lived here in two years, and it's a town that changes constantly (well, the people do. everything else is the same).
I love it. Anderson is my home. Michigan is my home. Nashville is my home.
The road is my home. I feel just as welcome and just as at peace on the road.
This journey has just begun.
Friday, April 4, 2008
april showers
(for your reading pleasure, i will copy and paste my a's into this blog).
the past few nights i haven't been able to sleep very well. i've tossed and turned all night, i've been waking up at odd hours. i've been having the strangest dreams... one dream my friend's apartment caves in, the next dream my co-worker is standing in my mom's front lawn mooing, and then later still some of my friends are trying to exorcise a giant bloody eyeball that is resting in a wheelbarrow. honestly, i couldn't make this stuff up (well, i couldn't make it up outside of my subconcious).
as i sit here with my morning cup of coffee (which i desperately need today, as i've already been awake for an hour, and i'm usually just now rolling out of bed), i'm listening to the storm roll through (for the second or third morning in a row now) and i am reminded that when the storms come, they also go. they sometimes leave behind damage, but that damage only creates character.
i wouldn't neccessarily say i'm going through any sort of major life-storm right now, but it has been a stressful month (starting in the beginning of march) that is rolling into a new stressful month at work.
i know it's nothing i can't handle, but it has been daunting at times.
but in a week, i'll be free (if only for a little while). my body, mind, and soul are desperately craving the week of freedom. the week of friends, live music, and the open road. (and even less sleep than i've been getting this week)
the past few nights i haven't been able to sleep very well. i've tossed and turned all night, i've been waking up at odd hours. i've been having the strangest dreams... one dream my friend's apartment caves in, the next dream my co-worker is standing in my mom's front lawn mooing, and then later still some of my friends are trying to exorcise a giant bloody eyeball that is resting in a wheelbarrow. honestly, i couldn't make this stuff up (well, i couldn't make it up outside of my subconcious).
as i sit here with my morning cup of coffee (which i desperately need today, as i've already been awake for an hour, and i'm usually just now rolling out of bed), i'm listening to the storm roll through (for the second or third morning in a row now) and i am reminded that when the storms come, they also go. they sometimes leave behind damage, but that damage only creates character.
i wouldn't neccessarily say i'm going through any sort of major life-storm right now, but it has been a stressful month (starting in the beginning of march) that is rolling into a new stressful month at work.
i know it's nothing i can't handle, but it has been daunting at times.
but in a week, i'll be free (if only for a little while). my body, mind, and soul are desperately craving the week of freedom. the week of friends, live music, and the open road. (and even less sleep than i've been getting this week)
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