A Random Collection of Thoughts

It's weird how smells bring back memories. Sometimes I feel like I'm wasting my youth. I have a small fear of rejection. Sometimes I take things too persoanlly. Sometimes I really miss having roommates. I tend to overact and become irrational about little things, such as receiving a phone call from an unknown number. I think I've been complaining a lot lately. I think it's weird how doing nothing can be so exhausting. I miss having a sense of community. I love the orange post-its on my desk.

To follow up from my last post, I know that I am a poor example of Christ.

Food For Thought #3

"I believe that the greatest trick of the devil is not to get us into some sort of evil but rather have us wasting time. This is why the devil tries so hard to get Christians to be religious. If he can sink a man's mind into habit, he will prevent his heart from engaging God." - Don Miller, Blue Like Jazz

I was recently reminded how sometimes I don't like to call myself a Christian. The word has lost all of it's meaning in our culture. There are too many people who casuaully use it without realizing what it really means to be a "little christ"

Looking at what Christ did and spoke, I realized how there were only a few select moments that even He Himself claimed to be Messiah.

Maybe we are to take that approach. Maybe we're not supposed to run around and say "I'm a Christian!"

Maybe we're just supposed to do our best to worship Him always

"For some the world's a treasure to discover/Your scenery should never stay the same"

-Jon McLaughlin, "Indiana"

Currently Listening
The Walk
By Hanson
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I just purchased the above CD yesterday.

Yes, it's been ten years. Yes, they are still making music. As I was listening to it on the way home from Best Buy last night, I started thinking about the past ten years. In a way, they've gone by pretty quickly, considering that ten years ago I would have probably thought that 24 would be old and long time away. Boy was I wrong.

So, in honor of the 10-year Hanson-versary:

Ten years ago:

I was 14
I couldn't drive
My favorite color was red
I wore a watch on my right arm
I had braces with a big space in the front for my non-existent tooth
I played the flute every day
I played the piano every day
I was about to be a freshman in high school
I hung out with Heather, Teri, Ryan, and Ellie every day
I lived at home with my mom, dad, brother and our dog Ashely
I participated in racing our sailboat every Wednesday night in the summer
I wanted to attend Michigan State University and become a vet
I was really shy
I was really excited that Libby was moving back to St. Joe
I designed a Hanson fan website
Cell phones? Myspace? Facebook? Xanga? No, no, no, and no.

Today:

I am 24
I drive at least 20 miles a day
My favorite color is blue
I don't wear a watch
I have a fake tooth
I haven't played my flute in 6 years
I haven't played the piano in a couple years
I've been out of school for a year
I (sadly) hardly ever talk to Heather, Teri, Ryan, or Ellie
I live alone three states away from my mom. My parents are divorced, my dad remarried, my brother is in Chicago, and Ashely drowned in our pond
I haven't sailed in years
I attended Anderson University and majored in Christian Ministries
I talk to strangers in coffee shops
I moved three states away from Libby, but still see her almost every time I'm home
I work at a company that designs websites (but not for Hanson)
Cell phones? I've had 4. Myspace? Facebook? Xanga? Yes, yes and yes

there's no specific point to this post.

i'm at work and there's 30 minutes left of the day.

i'm really enjoying all of my co-workers and the atmosphere of this company, but I don't have enough things to do. I guess that's a good problem. I mean, it gets boring, but at least I'm not in over my head and stressed out.

That's why I'm xanga-ing. It's also very nice that they don't care what I do on the internet here. I mean, they'd probably have a problem if I was looking at porn or something, but let's face it, I'm not going to.

So yeah I can xanga and facebook and all of that. At first I didn't because I didn't think it'd be a good idea during my first few days. And I wasn't exactly sure what the policy was anyway.

Now I figure it's okay for several reasons:

1) I see other co-workers looking at weird things online, like my manager watching her friend's Deal or No Deal audition tape

2) If it wasn't okay I think they would block the sites, like most companies do

3) Our GM once looked over my shoulder and asked what I was doing, and when he saw the website, said "nice!" and walked away



yeah I'm okay.



I was in a wedding last weekend. That was fun, besides the almost fainting part.

Leslie's coming next weekend. Yay! And Erin's birthday is this weekend. Yay! Unfortunately I could not give her the gift I wanted to, so now I have to come up with something else.

Okay folks, it's time (finally)



Food For Thought #2

"When we are not afraid to enter into our own center and to concentrate on the stirrings of our own soul, we come to know that being alive means being loved. This experience tells us that we can only love because we are born out of love, that we can only give because our life is a gift, and that we can only make others free because we are set free by Him whose heart is greater than ours." - Henri Nouwen, The Wounded Healer